you are not alone

Feeling alone is probably the absolute worst feeling in anxiety. Sometimes I can feel alone even when I am with my closest friends who know everything about my anxiety. A friend texted me Psalm 139:11-12 a few days ago. It says:

If I say, “Surely the darkness shall fall on me,”
Even the night shall be light about me;
Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You,
But the night shines as the day;
The darkness and the light are both alike to You.

I love these verses so much. I love the meaning behind them. It is so calming to know that He knows. I can’t hide in the darkness. But that’s good. Sometimes the anxiety makes me think that I am alone and that it is good for me to be alone. But really, I am really not alone, and it’s good that He is there. In darkness or in light, He knows. He knows what goes through my head when I lay under my covers crying myself to sleep, He knows the thoughts that go through my head as I struggle through a panic attack, … He knows everything.

I want to challenge you to read through the entirety of Psalm 139 because it is a wonderful passage to think about during panic attacks. Memorize the chapter. Quote it to yourself during panic attacks. Cling to the God and His Word, because His power is stronger than the power that your anxiety has on you.

No matter what your anxiety tells you, you are not alone. God loves you very much. He knows everything about your panic attacks and understands you, because He created you. He is always there; he always has been and always will be. He never lets go.

welcome

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled.  Matthew 5:6

You’re here for a reason. You probably didn’t just stumble across this blog post by accident. And even if you did, there is a reason why you’re reading it. Maybe you’re just bored, or trying to waste some time, or giving yourself an excuse to procrastinate. Maybe you’re here because you’re where I’m at – lost. But lost is a state of being that’s not permanent. I may be lost, I may feel like I am stumbling around in the dark, but I know my destination. Light. Light is my destination, it is the one thing I seek, it is the one thing my soul needs. I am desperately broken and hopeless and without the light I would be forever stumbling in the dark.

I have anxiety. Anxiety is like being lost in the dark. Anxiety is feeling trapped in a darkness so deep that there is no way out. Anxiety is like seeing that spark of light off in the distance and wanting it but not having the strength to chase after it. Anxiety is fighting every single day to simply live and breathe.

So, why this blog?

I want you to know that you are never alone, no matter what. God is always there; He is a constant when your anxiety causes roller coasters of emotions. Jesus is everything you need, and even when it gets hard, He is still there. He is always there.